The end of the summer, that is. I am preparing myself to return to what I like to affectionately call "the sandbox". Original, no, but appropriate, a resounding yes. After spending two months immersed in greenery all around me (such that I've already taken it for granted), I am going to return to that little corner of the world where nothing other than super-evolved beings (us) seem to survive in. Wow - was that a run-on sentence or what?
I have a few more days before I depart and I prepare for it with mixed feelings. I made the best of my time away from Doha - possibly moreso than during any other summer break I had while living abroad - and now I'm not so sure I want to leave. I've reacquainted myself with friends, old and new and feel that in some ways Life is passing me by. New marriages, new homes, new babies...it's all too overwhelming and I'm not even the one having them! Four years away can do that, I suppose. Yes, this coming year will be my fifth year abroad....it is still surreal to me. I spent a good portion of my twenties in the Middle East and came back to find that a) I'm not the same person I was when I had first left, and b) my wants and needs are changing. What I thought I wanted or didn't want five years ago don't necessarily apply. To be honest, I'm not even that sure what it is I want exactly. I don't know. I don't necessarily want to get married (now?). I've never really pictured myself to be a mother (something I have yet to grow out of), and I'm not sure where I would feel comfortable calling home.
So that got way too philosophical for the tastes of this blog so I'll stop here. It's safe to say that I depart for the Gulf with a bit of apprehension. Besides, the thought of experiencing 40-plus degree weather can do that to you sometimes. I'm trying to enjoy the 18-19 degree weather here while I can (Toronto had a cool summer this year). The next time I blog will probably be from sweltering Doha so until then...!
Oh, and one more thing: Ramadan Mubarak! Kol sana wentu tayebeen!
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